Fourth Quarter & Final Down

October 30, 2006 at 8:03 pm Leave a comment

My due date is looming, just 4 weeks away. I can’t stop thinking about it, how my stomach should be taut and round. How I should not be able to see my feet. What he or she would look like. Would I be a week or so early like the boys? Or would this one have been late? right on time? So many thoughts, so many hopes and dreams, so many prayers and wishes. Nothing to hold.

I wake up often … that thin veil between dream and reality still infront of my eyes. I see a newborn in a blue and green striped sleeper with auburn hair and blue eyes but can not get to the baby. I panic, wake fully and cry softly.

Aunt Flo stopped by this morning for a visit.  Cd 3 ultrasound and bloodwork is set for Wednesday morning. Sperm is on ice. Maybe my due date will be cause for a small celebration. Oh God I hope so.


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Who’s that girl?

Me: 36, army wife and mother of two boys. Hoping for "one more miracle". We have tried the adoption route for almost 7 years and have recently changed directions. We are now down this road travelled by many, IF Blvd. 3 diui's, one BFN, two BFP and two heatbreaking miscarriages later we are at a crossroad ... do we try just one more time? Come along for the ride, be sure to have your tables in the upright position and your seatbelt firmly secured ... it is sure to be a bumpy ride.


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